@ExtraCheesyPie
Looking back at being 14 makes me cringe at all the stupid shit I said. My shit saying is slowly winding down, thank god. I was the definition of dumbass kid, basically.
I guess I'll do the same when I'm older, I already do now while thinking about being 8-10 because before that my mind was so alien I can't even make sense of what I was thinking, let alone reflect upon it.
I kinda worded it wrong. Despite sitting at the grown-ups table I was still miserable (I just wanted to play Pokemon ffs) and everyone treated me the same. imagine all the fun of being bored out of your mind while also being treated the same, so I had to sit there until everyone decided that dinner was done.
Trust me, being 14 kinda sucks: stupid. High school drama, and you dont even get to do anything nice at family gatherings like getting slightly drunk while trying to sleep and a cat keeps slapping you (a true story that keeps fucking happening because all the guest rooms are filled, and being the one who sleeps on the couch every fucking time, because its going to be uncomfortable sleeping with a somewhat large guy who youre related to.)
at the very least make sure you have fun, because when youre 14 youre going to have free time.
I guess I am the same as you with how people treat me with people I know and people who know me they act normally, even if they all! Don't know how to start a conversation.
With fun generally, I make my own. I play immense amounts of TF2, I get hammered >

(I use hammer D;>) or I go out on my bike for an hour or two or something. I'd like to go to parties with other humans of my age but I feel as if (0:19)
(Also a great song)
As for alchmohol, I'm the boring sober guy type. I don't even like coffee! (although I do have a theory that liking alcohol is Stockholm syndrome, but for a drink)
And as for bedding, I would always sleep with my brother in the crappiest room when we went on holiday or something. He snores.... Stupendous amounts!