every time i've approached this community trying to get my maps playtested, i was always either ignored completely or told that the same 5 maps that has been tested for the last week would be tested again for the next week. "I shouldn't ever expect anything" was another awesome response i got when i tried. wonderful community service as he was telling me the truth. I totally get thats is a community thing and i'm not in your community. i tried many times to follow your rules and was told "no" the few times someone felt it necessary to even respond. after a while, i learned to stop asking. so yes, this is my fault for learning that this community or the people in charge of gameday was not interested in anything i had to offer. he only reason i even continued to post my maps here is out of respect to Crash and Frozen and a few of the other top admins. I knew they appreciated my efforts to try to show that doing the exact same thing for ten years is maybe not the only path to level design.
on the other hand, i totally appreciated the recent feedback i got, i responded to them and made changes. cheers to those guys. they got me to do more work on it that i had intended. i was literally in shock that someone cared enough to run around the map and give me feedback on it. i told friends about it. i'd give them each a fancy hat as thanks.
As far as my maps not matching the art style... yah i get that its a fine line of your opinion and everything else is wrong. i didnt point my post at you or this community and you have no idea what my end goal is. You couldnt even guess at it. Yet you felt attacked enough to point your own finger and tell me this is my fault? yes this is my fault. i didnt say it was your fault or even this community's fault. getting a map into the game would be great, we always agree on that, but it was not my own end goal. as usual, you guys judge everything from a set of rules from 10 years ago that you dont even understand.
So you'll ask what is my own goals? Ideally it could have been something as simple as people asking how i built something or even why? To have people engage me in positive conversation would have been more than enough to make me willing to continue. But that's not going to happen here. That's not what happens here. Instead, I get feedback from people telling me to remove all the textures and props from my maps as they don't think an alpha map should have them. Guess what? That shuts down any potential ability to engage that person. They are reading their responses from a clipboard. I know to ignore that person. But after years of that and everything else ...And it's mostly the everything else... i'm done.
Try to remember that i wasnt going to share all my issues publically. I have spoken to Crash a few times on the topic over the last year. I know he's not happy with my choice to leave. He is also aware of these issues exist within this community. But it's not for me to solve. It's not for him to solve either. He and the admins can only do so much. The community has to choose to be better.
I genuinely hope that you guys find whatever success you are looking for and deserve. if this post makes upset, instead of telling me why i'm an asshole, take a look at your own actions. Are you a positive member of this community? Are you just hanging out here? How do you make this place better?
