Hello again. It's been a while.
2 years, 3 months, 7 days, 23 hours, and 43 minutes.
Reactor always has been and will be a very personal project for me. Right after I started it back in October 2015 during my senior year of high school my mom was diagnosed with colon cancer. Working on Reactor alone in my room was one of the ways I worked through it; I poured my heart and soul into it to help distract myself from reality. My mom's doing fine, and has been in remission for over four years now.
Since I started this map, a lot has changed in my life. I've started and almost finished a degree in Game Design, designed and published a board game for the city I now call home, came out as gay to my friends and family, and got brought on as TF2maps staff. I've made new friends, and said goodbye to one that used to work on this map with me.
Over the years, I've pulled this map apart and put it back together countless times, and only some versions have seen the light of day. Around April of last year I got close to releasing an a13 which was to introduce sweeping changes with over half of the map completely redesigned. But then I got a message asking if I knew it was getting competitive testing, which set off a panic attack, one of the very few I've had in my life. It turned out someone else on the project decided to get it competitively tested against my explicit instructions not to do so until I felt it was ready. They broke my trust and hurt me in their desire to see the map finished, and it killed all motivation for me to keep working on Reactor. For the rest of 2019 it sat unfinished.
After much reflection, I decided I needed to do something more drastic than keeping rebuilding points over and over. So on January 7th, 2020 I opened a new file and began working on rebuilding Reactor from the ground up. A complete reboot to help distance myself from the mess the map had become, and one of the people that caused it to become that way.
I know it won't be perfect on my first try; honestly it'll probably be pretty bad. But Reactor means too much to me to not finish it, and I refuse to let it die so easily. So, welcome back to Reactor. I hope it's been worth the wait.
-14bit
Reactor V2 A1 change log:
- Completely rebuilt the map from the ground up
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